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So um…I just want to rant to anybody who even reads what I put here… So basically my dad thinks i’m a huge disappointment because i’m fat and I have nothing to live for because of that. He states that if I ever get to fat that I’ll have to deal with surgerys and things like that. I understand what he’s trying to say, but the problem is that he thinks its just easy to wake up one day and say “hey, I am going to lose weight and stop being a fat ass.” Its really tough being fat and trying to live with it every day. Its gotten severe to the point where I just wanna do crack and get skinny like them bitches…. But I know I won’t. Even if its tempting. So yeah.. Fellow fat people.. I love y’all

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My mom passed away and me and my dad feel a little lost now without her…. She was the one that told us what to do or say when we needed it. There will be a funeral around wednesday or thursday. If you need any info,text me? I just thought of putting this on tumblr because I don’t think I can deal with this shit on Facebook.

There is only really one inspiration in my life. She has always been there for me when things got tough. She always fought my battles with anybody that would be messing with me. She would also take care of me when i was sick. And that same woman has been fighting problems of her own. She got cancer a year and a half ago and shes been beating up that shit since day 1. She never quit. Until a few days ago, she went to the hospital because she was getting pains and was rushed to the emergency. She hasn’t left the hospital for about a week. She sleeps all day, in and out with dreams and reality. She’s starting to lose memory of where she is and or who she is talking to. The doctor told us that she might leave us not too long from now. I just wish i had more time to hang out with her, take her out to go see the sight before she actually leaves. But we can all hope for the best… right? I mean she is going to rest and finally be at peace when this is all over. I’m pretty sure that Jesus will keep her safe once she gets there. I just hope he takes care of her like we have been taking care of her….I want my mommy to be ok soon.<3